i really hope that i'm just thinking more than i should have thought.
the way you spell it: i expected this?
another type of routine?
i called out, i'm so afraid of not receiving a reply.
that fear, again is something i do not understand.

i miss those days whereby you would nudge me.
i would just run to the comp.
banging into little things, i didnt really care.'
but i really miss those days.
when its rare, you'll slowly breathe its importance.

again.

i dont like that word.
its stupid, foolish, innocent.
the last word?innocent.
act-innocent?
i dont wanna know.

i really wished you are not there now, you tell me, i trust you for sure.
just tell me, comfort me with your lies, i dont mind.
maybe i'm better off listening to your lies.
thats where i'll get my serenity from within.
its just simply, your lies.
be it a white lie or not, i thank you for all of them.
at least you said it to pacify me, all i ever wanted to know is that you cared.