i am not your toy okay.
you think by helping get what i want means giving me hapiness?
you are so wrong then.
i so detest the thought of you poking into my cca life.
you dont poke in like that.
what i want, i should earn it with my abilities and self qualities.
you jolly well leave my cca life alone.

seriously, i'm just totally clueless about your past.
you have hardly mentioned them to me.
why?
what are euu hiding?
i rather euu tell me than i slowly find out.
cause the more i find out, the more i realise i actually do not know euu well.
the more i cant stand and tolerate euu.
your colourful past left me with too many questions revolving around.
just what do you want.

at least give me some space right?
even my dearest cca, you also poked yourself into it.
must everything i do have to concern with you?
i need privacy, self decisions.
not you deciding everything for me.
somemore till the extend of implicating others into it.
you really think by helping me get what i considered of getting before will make me happy?
maybe i'll be happy, but if i didnt earn for it by myself, it is not mine.
i wont be able to do the job well.
cause i know, i didnt really earned it to hand.
so would you just stop poking into all these matters.
do you know how embarrassed i felt when your sir asked me?
so what business do i have with you?
so i guess you intend to control every part of me eh?
make me like your full time controlled robot?
then one day euu tell me you no longer want this toy and its ready to be thrown into the dustbin?

i forced myself to ignore euu.
cause i dont want to be in your control.
thus i would walk out from all these.
you are just a obstacle.
i seriously dont trust you at all.
your words seem to be all ''book-found''.
word for word from books.
you think we are playing fairytale chain isit?
you play it by yourself then.